sadist speaks

i had a great new year.no doubt its was the best
2009 begins with me being sick.okay but gettin better.
yeay...

college fear.i has it.i dunow why but its here.weighing me down making me feel rushed and serba salah at every turn.i know im not ready fer this new year cause it still feels like december.damn son!
goins to scotland tapi lamew lagikkkk demmm...

another annoyance is that i cant help but to play this game.curveball
god help me.i cant fuckin sleep well.i cant fuckin do anything.but it helps not thinking bout college.
mgehh?
yeahhh

i was complaining a lot with 2008.i still feel stuck in it.hmm crap
i feel liek insulting somebody but i cant remember who.damn curveball fuck!
i know i shouldn't.i can help it but i feel like i gotta talk about somebody.
i might his/her feelings but the fuck i care.
here's to yu
are you totally an absolute man of god or are you just another hypocrite that speeds up the end of the world?i hear silence.no wonder your relationships sucks.is god helping?really?no wonder its not working.haha(m laughs like a bitch)
why don't you just stop trying and go berdakwah like your only god told you to.mgeh?

im bord.i nk go out with aled but im a hoomin so i hav guilt.damn college fear.

though-
when i say in sarcasm "if there is a god which there could be"or it comes in a question
"ade ke tuhan?" i get a cold chill trembling down from head to toe everytime i say it.fear i presume?im so burnin in hell.

gee thanks im mellow now.

fact-
i love linda.the post bellow bukan aku yew my fellow readers(if i had any)
hey im not mellow anymoar.sleep?i guess...